How to turn your creative juices on and other stories

In the Spring I did something I haven’t done for a while: I committed to a continuous practice of Sat Kriya.

Sat Kriya has never been a favorite meditation of mine. Rather the opposite. Arms up, pumping the navel, forget about it. But by April, spring hadn’t sprung in Copenhagen and it felt like we were in the deep-end of January, internally as well as externally. I felt dried up. Metaphorically and literally speaking.

Over a decade ago I made a vow to never complain about the weather. I realized that even if I was to spend just a tiny amount of my life complaining about the weather, that would quickly add up and I would lose a whole lot of good life.

The mind is multilayered but in the yogic technology we often operate with the 3 major facets of the mind: The Negative, The Positive and The Neutral Mind. The Negative Mind is known as the protective mind. Think boundaries, all your no’s and second thoughts. The Positive mind is the expansive mind; a place for all your yes’s, leaps and turning obstacles into opportunities. The Neutral Mind is the Elder; the wise one. The Observer that understands beyond polarities.

Mastering your mind is a wonderful way of being in the driver's seat of your life. What direction are you giving your life? What are you essentially giving life to? Take a look at the room or space you find yourself in right now. What do you see? Do you see the mess on the floor, the questionable interior in the waiting room? Or do you see the beauty of the evergreen, the smile on the man’s face who too is sitting in the questionable decorated waiting room? How we perceive our external environment is pretty much an exact blueprint of the condition of our internal environment. It’s simple: Wherever the energy flows, the energy grows. It’s simple, but not always easy. Because #human.

Choosing the Creative Direction of your mind and letting your Heart and Soul lead the way is not going to be the most comfortable journey due to the subconscious programming we all come with. The mind is a great servant of the Heart yet there’s a very primal part of our human makeup that doesn’t like to change. That’s okay too. Positive reinforcement is key when we begin transforming and changing the course of our lives. Beating yourself up about not meditating enough, not healing fast enough, not manifesting all the things, is nothing but a rebrand of that internal voice that goes: not good enough yet. Call it ego / conditioning / fear / subconscious programming. In the end of the day that’s not how we heal, transform or grow.

On a cellular level, healing and recreation can only happen when a sense of safety and nourishment are present. Think of a woman giving birth; oxytocin levels drop when she feels unsafe and stressed out. On the other hand oxytocin levels rise when she feels supported, held and nourished. Then woman can open herself up to the primal creative powers and give birth even through the most intense pain. The same goes for any rebirth we might find ourselves at. To be fully human is to practice the art of birth, life, death and rebirth. Over and over again. Healing, if you ask me, is the cellular and embodied realization that we are whole. Parts of us are just remembering and realizing that we are already home and whole.

When we look to the collective psyche many of us grew up in and around, it’s no wonder that we may get a little wrapped up in the idea that “healing” is another task we have to fulfill, which ironically takes away the energy we could use to simply surrender into that very experience of our innate wholeness. Right now many of us are shifting from a goal oriented mindset to a process oriented mindset. A shift back into an innate intelligence that runs through all living things. Look at Nature. Nature is never in bloom for the sake of blooming. She blooms because that is a part of a greater, Divine process. As is the decay of the same petals that once were in bloom. So as you continue your journey whether you call it healing or simply just being human, remember to celebrate every part of your homecoming. Everything is sacred. A Victory is a Victory.

So what about that Sat Kriya, you may wonder?

Here’s another component of healing and choosing the creative direction for your life: responsibility. When you begin celebrating yourself, you in-source tremendous amounts of energy. That energy is going to make it a lot easier to take responsibility for whatever you may need in the given moment. I call it closing a leaking faucet.

You most likely have had the experience of feeling drawn to a certain meditation, kriya or mantra. When you do, all I can advise you to do is: pick up the phone and answer. My intuition dialed up Sat Kriya on that April morning. There is nothing wrong with winter dryness, blues or overwhelm. Here’s the thing: we don’t meditate to bypass life. We meditate to create more energy, spaciousness and consciousness in our inner life so that we can be big enough to sit with the whole pendulum of life; pleasure and suffering alike. Knowing that beyond it all, there’s a unity, to yolk light and darkness, that is yoga. What do you do with that space, that consciousness is your responsibility. For me it looked like Sat Kriya. I felt so ready to welcome in a new river of life within me, to stir the heat of Shakti in my root and let her warmth and fire juice up my channels. To birth myself anew. Giving thanks to the life I leave behind. Every single day. As most of you already know, a daily practice is a sacred act of connecting with your soul. Describing these, at times quite yet direct revelations and deepenings can be limiting, and to me it can often sound a little bit like: do this and you’ll get that.

But! I do want to try and encapsulate some of the ripples that moved within me because we’re going to work closely with Sat Kriya on The Muses in October-November. At that time of the year the energetic shift is tangible and Sat Kriya is going to support us in igniting our inner fire, moving pleasure through our body/mind and bringing our chakras into a greater balance. Which basically means to generate, hold and move with more energy, vitality, creativity, consciousness, spaciousness, radiance and joy. Honestly, 3 months and counting of Sat Kriya has been so fucking profound.

What happened on my 90+ days of Sat Kriya:

_ My creative and sexual (one and the same) energy juiced up to a maximum percent. I felt like Shakira, Shakti, Saraswati and Kali in one.

_ Speaking of Kali and Shakti. I initiated and entered a profound healing of my wild (divine) femme. In this journey I began to understand a new layer of just how suppressed this archetype and energy is within the individual as it is in the collective, beyond gender.

_ Lineage Healing. The greater embodiment and commune with these untapped areas of my energy supported me in uprooting and healing tremendous amount of sexual shame and trauma, personal as inhereted. One of many trauma responses is the inability to feel pleasure; sexually as non-sexually. The moving of my Kundalini Shakti melted the iceberg of frozen fear and alchemized into a warm, lush river of life. I felt plugged into my own resources.

_ Which equalled: Pleasure, pleasure, pleasure. Not just sexually, but a deeeeep, continous, wave of pleasure running through me throughout my day. Like really, wow, this body is a sensory haven! From food, to scent, to the breath of life. My life has felt orgasmic, erotic and so rich.

_ On The Muses I’ll tell you about the journey of the Naga Shakti, how she awakens and what happens when she hits the Heart on her journey through the Chakras. It’s a beautiful tale of opening to a new layer and way of life. To feel the power of a 108 Suns beaming within you. That’s what happened within me and it is something I wish for every human being to experience in this lifetime.

Before I send you off into your day, did I mention that we moved the Muses a tiny bit? We’re now going to journey through the fall, more exact from October 6th-November 17th.

On a final note I wanted to thank you for being here. For reading and following along for the last couple of years. It’s my deepest pleasure to be in this field with all of you. Thank you for being.

With Love,